I feel really happy tonight like so overwhelmed, because my ROLE MODEL JUSTIN SKYE viewed my instagram post just a few minutes ago it really makes me feel good like wow she just visited my status lol got this big smile on my face right now😀😁.
And that’s the view I got from her😁😆 I could stare at that over and over again this made my day😁.
Hyy u all its your girl Desire welcome too my blog. So i made a choice on staying of my socials for a couple of days that’s if i crack lol my initial plan was too goo off for the next 3 months.
I feel like i need a media break away from fake viewing if u know what i mean just need a reset from my part,A little time too think set some things straight u know get myself back, been getting so many wacky opinions from so on and sofort but none feels real so im just gonna take some time off all my socials.
Just deleted my whatsapp that was the most difficult step i took and also a big step away from my phone because that’s one of the apps i put my all in im even more active they than on my insta wordpress and whatever social u could think of apart from Facebook i don’t do Facebook, The only app im not getting off would be WordPress because it’s actually peaceful here for now lol😂😂, well right now i feel pretty peaceful u see i feel positivety flowing through me i wish my life out of my phone and media could be like that like u know what i mean once i need a reset i could just delete a scene or some people off my life and then reinstall them once i feel much better thats something lol.
The more the world advance the more sophisticated it gets the more cruel it gets the more u just wanna hit the purse button if one “EXIST” lol.
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Theirs absolutely no such thing as a perfect day, days either start bad or end good or start good and end not how it was expected or u get a good morning, in between the day bad swings and a not so bad conclusion of that day.
I remember as kid i would burst into tears because my almost perfect day got ruined and would always yell too myself it’s impossible to have 24hrs to yourself without feeling messed up or upset, but then i got too a point were i realized this things can’t be avoided or pushed away of solved by tears like those challenges wouldn’t finally feel pity for me and give me a day off its gonna keep coming in seasons but i determine u determine how you’re gonna face them and what u let them do too u their always obviously gonna come we just gotta face it u know, well here are some quotes i use too keep me going and hopefully they could also help u out:
1.I am Beautiful
2. I am strong
3. I am absolutely perfect just the way i am
4. What people say doesn’t matter it never matters what i think is all that matters
5. I am a fighter
6. Their is more to me than meets the eye
All this words means more than u can imagine to me it means alot sometimes when i feel at the edge of falling just saying this over and over gives me just enough strength to move on and go ahead with my beautiful day,probably it could u help u just as it has always helped me.
But for all this you need to find your self worth without that this are all just some useless words typed out self love self worth this are the keys too a confident man or woman.
Well that’s all for now thanks for reading my blog make sure to like follow and share my blog have a nice day☺
Sitted on my bed with my head phones on listening too music just got done with my previous blog inspiration, right now I’m listening too sia and her magical voice is making me feel inspired for some reason.
Playlist recommend for u while reading this blog to get more of the vibe I got while typing all this out: 1. Sia and David Guetta – floating through space 2. Sia – one plus one 3. Sia – never give up now lay back and let the music lead the way😆☺😇
So let’s get too business now what’s my preview of love what I think love is well I’m gonna be completely sincere with u while you’re young try not to get them for anyone that’s not family because it’s useless and a pain in the ass once you get a taste of it write now teens youngsters r all being deceived and controlled by the chemical reaction in our brain something we have no idea on how too control it takes only a mature mind to do so even tho grown ups also get deceived at times but it’s not as much as confused young teens.
Don’t get me wrong on all my opinions we can’t control it and we don’t try we don’t even know how too try not get crushes on the wrong person who would never look your path most times it works out and most times it never does but it only works out in movies fr lol just kidding but it’s a fucking free world we don’t care we are so not undercontrol so keep falling in love getting hurt messing up that’s the only way you’re gonna get wiser how you’re gonna know what u shouldn’t go after soo be free and take thinks carefree we only live once you know.
I think the music I’m listening too got my mind spinning off key I missed so much points but whatever I’m no writer just a 16yr old trying too express herself .
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WARNING– (don’t blog while listening too a hype music if u know what I mean I’m no longer on earth right now soo off lol)
Passion what’s passion the word passion something that drives u crazy or nuts something you really want, well I got many of that I think when I’m older I’m gonna be some girl so many different Jobs I would love too:
Be a YouTube star
Be a blog star
Be a Doctor
I want a life of platform but isn’t it funny how on earth would a Doctor manage having a blog going on YouTube and modeling that’s a one way ticket to stress town lol, But I don’t know I could model on my insta I could be a self model idk lol or part time not full time but that’s gonna work it’s all gonna work so what’s your passion? COMMENT BELOW
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Hy u all this was suppose to be blogged about like once I was strong enough too look at my phone😂 but the whole story was just too long to type out but I finally killed my laziness so I could blog to u now buckle up and get ready to
So it all started after the fight I had with my sister on a Saturday, the following morning I started feeling some pain on my lower right of my belly and some bumb near my naval. Well at first just taught it was some little pain as a result to the fight I got in the other day so I totally ignored it just applied some ointment till this morning i was about doing my daily workout routine but couldn’t it felt so painful couldn’t jump of do any workout, so told my mum and dad about it and they went like this could be an appendix pain like after they said that I felt really scared like I don’t imagine myself in an operation theatre getting my stomach operated on 😢, so they got some drugs for me to compress the pain and I started going on google to see the possible reason for the pain guess what I saw ovary twist, kidney stone like what the fuck that was even worst I spent so many nights crying because I just couldn’t imagine the horror and pain then my dad took me for a check up I prayed so badly that it shouldn’t be an appendix pain it should just be some minor thing that could be fixed with drugs but guess what the doctor confirmed that it was an appendix pain and then suggested we should operate on it ASAP but since I had school that weak he was gonna give me some drugs to suppress it but I had too come back too operate it by Friday once I’m back from school.
During the weak I was under the vitamins my aunt who was a nurse came over and my mum told her about it and she went on about the doctor being a liar and all I had too do was take my vitamins and drink lots of water too flush it away well obviously thought that was some nonsense but she stated that her daughter did the same and she hasn’t felt any pain till date and someone I know off also said the the same so I taught it wouldn’t hurt trying well I took the drugs for 7days thats how long the drugs complete dose was and u took lots of water everyday but immediately the dose got finished the pain came back even worst than before o lord I was so scared cried some few nights even more.
(U may ask why I only cried at nights? well I didn’t want anyone to know I was letting it get to me because my mum went on and on about the operation being simple that I would be awake during the operation that it wouldn’t hurt at all I would be strong after 2days blah blah blah but those speech didn’t work.)
Then I complained to my mum that it even hurts more now so they took me too me too another hospital for another check up, wounder why because that’s a waste of money, when we got the the Junior doctor did the test and was like it’s an appendix pain that I need too operate on it, then my mum told him about my aunts theory then he corrected it saying? An appendix can’t be washed away the pain can only be compressed if it happens that it goes away it’s just gonna come back again and it’s gonna be worst than before.
So the junior doctor said I need too see the main doc before we fix a date for the operation but apparently he was busy in the theatre with a serious operation so we waited and waited but he wasn’t still done so they just announced that we would have to come back the next day which was a Friday so we left, mehn u have no idea what ran on my mind that day.
We went to the hospital the next day I saw the main doctor and he said we had to operate on it that same day like wtf I want mentally prepared but couldn’t say no that shit burst it could turn into something serious that’s gonna be double call Scar in my beautiful stomach 😂, then they told me too drink 6 Large cup of alkaline water and eat nothing that whole day (u have no idea what that taste like😰) after few hours they called me to take off my clothes and get in the theater for the operation got some drip pipe idk fixed in my left arm then I laid half neaked on the bed were I was too be operated on😂 mehn k was scared but just got some courage then the tied my hards on some stuff they connected too on the bed I was so scared like why r they doing that I taught to myself was I gonna struggle and scream though this so then I asked the doctor if I was gonna be awake during the operation but he didn’t say nothing too me😂 like at that point I was already planing and escape plan on how I was gonna Jack my hand and run out screaming I don’t wanna do this anymore embarrassing but if it saves me the the torture of pain😂 then some other doctor started injecting my left harm they the drip whatever was my arm started feeling cold and heavy I seriously prayed at that point that I was gonna fall asleep but I wasn’t sleeping then he gave me the third injecting 😂 the entire started dancing like I felt like they were swinging the bed and boom I woke up feeling confused and pain on my stomach I started rolling over on my bed had no idea the operation was done with taught It was just the appendix pain that got worst but then I heard the nurse next to me feeling me too stop rolling so I felt my stomach and they was this huge bandage on it o mehn was I relieve that I was alive😂😂
Got discharged the next day evening early right wounder why but the doctor discharged mee😂💔 first month I only drank alkaline water first week I only ate pap which is some light food but taste horrible with no milk and sugar and that’s what I ate lost so much weight well I was happy about that not just the pain journey home form the hospital was so harsh so many speed breaker each time we hit one I felt like I was being stabbed a thousand time, couldn’t eat food till I farted 😂, was so happy about my first fart after the operation😂😂 finally got to eat and got back too school the 2nd weak after the operation early yh my mum was against it but I just couldn’t miss more school not that I’m such a school lover just really bored of resting at home all my uniform started looking really big on me like lost pounds so many weight first day in school after to operation was nice got so much attention when I say attention I mean getting helps on notes I missed getting complemented on my new skinny look I never looked fat too me but they claimed I was if I compared it with now well whatever a thing of the past.
It’s been 3 months and some days after the operation now still in gralling process doc says it could take a yr or 6 months to fully heal looking forward to that because tho this stuff reduced my chores it placed so many limitations in what u do like I can’t wear heels for now like when I wear a dress I wanna rock it with some heels Snickers would work but I love going classy and heely looking forward to that and so happy about how skinny I look now but still wanna get body goal tho not here they but half way they
That’s the long story of the appendix surgery I had done, what a name😂,hope u enjoyed reading it tried making some points brief and straight forward to cut the long story short.
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Hyy guys 😇, so today I’m gonna share with u all how I spent my Christmas,well it was a quite simple but fun, I spent it with my family my mum made all my fav holiday dishes and cake😋😂that’s the best part,tho we didn’t get out but it was still fun I’m just gonna say my Christmas was spent with me eating bonding with my fam and watching TV later at night but mostly eating😂😋😇.
I want u reading this right now to share/comment on how u spent your 2020 Christmas😇.
Thanks for reading my blog and pls don’t forget to like and follow me WISHING YOU ALL A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR🎆💖💖
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