QUOTES THAT KEEPS ME GOING

Theirs absolutely no such thing as a perfect day, days either start bad or end good or start good and end not how it was expected or u get a good morning, in between the day bad swings and a not so bad conclusion of that day.

I remember as kid i would burst into tears because my almost perfect day got ruined and would always yell too myself it’s impossible to have 24hrs to yourself without feeling messed up or upset, but then i got too a point were i realized this things can’t be avoided or pushed away of solved by tears like those challenges wouldn’t finally feel pity for me and give me a day off its gonna keep coming in seasons but i determine u determine how you’re gonna face them and what u let them do too u their always obviously gonna come we just gotta face it u know, well here are some quotes i use too keep me going and hopefully they could also help u out:

1.I am Beautiful

2. I am strong

3. I am absolutely perfect just the way i am

4. What people say doesn’t matter it never matters what i think is all that matters

5. I am a fighter

6. Their is more to me than meets the eye

All this words means more than u can imagine to me it means alot sometimes when i feel at the edge of falling just saying this over and over gives me just enough strength to move on and go ahead with my beautiful day,probably it could u help u just as it has always helped me.

But for all this you need to find your self worth without that this are all just some useless words typed out self love self worth this are the keys too a confident man or woman.

Well that’s all for now thanks for reading my blog make sure to like follow and share my blog have a nice dayโ˜บ

LOVE ๐Ÿ’Ÿ๐Ÿ’

Sitted on my bed with my head phones on listening too music just got done with my previous blog inspiration, right now I’m listening too sia and her magical voice is making me feel inspired for some reason.

Playlist recommend for u while reading this blog to get more of the vibe I got while typing all this out: 1. Sia and David Guetta – floating through space 2. Sia – one plus one 3. Sia – never give up now lay back and let the music lead the way๐Ÿ˜†โ˜บ๐Ÿ˜‡

So let’s get too business now what’s my preview of love what I think love is well I’m gonna be completely sincere with u while you’re young try not to get them for anyone that’s not family because it’s useless and a pain in the ass once you get a taste of it write now teens youngsters r all being deceived and controlled by the chemical reaction in our brain something we have no idea on how too control it takes only a mature mind to do so even tho grown ups also get deceived at times but it’s not as much as confused young teens.

Don’t get me wrong on all my opinions we can’t control it and we don’t try we don’t even know how too try not get crushes on the wrong person who would never look your path most times it works out and most times it never does but it only works out in movies fr lol just kidding but it’s a fucking free world we don’t care we are so not undercontrol so keep falling in love getting hurt messing up that’s the only way you’re gonna get wiser how you’re gonna know what u shouldn’t go after soo be free and take thinks carefree we only live once you know.

I think the music I’m listening too got my mind spinning off key I missed so much points but whatever I’m no writer just a 16yr old trying too express herself .

Love you all make sure u share like and follow me for more thanks ๐Ÿ˜€๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜ฌโ˜บ๐Ÿ˜€๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜—๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™Œ

WARNING– (don’t blog while listening too a hype music if u know what I mean I’m no longer on earth right now soo off lol)

INSPIRATION

Hy thanks for joining in my blog rho I haven’t been active well that’s what I plan on talking about today

Been losing all my inspiration like I guess studying way too much killing my fun slowly but after my exams I’m gonna be back try hang on I’m gonna be back with full force lol…..

Wait a sec I just taught of something interesting in guess I could call it that too blog about in my next blog kk check that on my next blog thanks love u all

WHATS MY PASSION

Passion what’s passion the word passion something that drives u crazy or nuts something you really want, well I got many of that I think when I’m older I’m gonna be some girl so many different Jobs I would love too:

Model

Be a YouTube star

Be a blog star

Be a Doctor

I want a life of platform but isn’t it funny how on earth would a Doctor manage having a blog going on YouTube and modeling that’s a one way ticket to stress town lol, But I don’t know I could model on my insta I could be a self model idk lol or part time not full time but that’s gonna work it’s all gonna work so what’s your passion? COMMENT BELOW

Thanks for reading my blog on my passion don’t forget to like and share have a nice day love u all๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŽฌ

THE APPENDIX OPERATION I GOT DONE

Hy u all this was suppose to be blogged about like once I was strong enough too look at my phone๐Ÿ˜‚ but the whole story was just too long to type out but I finally killed my laziness so I could blog to u now buckle up and get ready to

So it all started after the fight I had with my sister on a Saturday, the following morning I started feeling some pain on my lower right of my belly and some bumb near my naval. Well at first just taught it was some little pain as a result to the fight I got in the other day so I totally ignored it just applied some ointment till this morning i was about doing my daily workout routine but couldn’t it felt so painful couldn’t jump of do any workout, so told my mum and dad about it and they went like this could be an appendix pain like after they said that I felt really scared like I don’t imagine myself in an operation theatre getting my stomach operated on ๐Ÿ˜ข, so they got some drugs for me to compress the pain and I started going on google to see the possible reason for the pain guess what I saw ovary twist, kidney stone like what the fuck that was even worst I spent so many nights crying because I just couldn’t imagine the horror and pain then my dad took me for a check up I prayed so badly that it shouldn’t be an appendix pain it should just be some minor thing that could be fixed with drugs but guess what the doctor confirmed that it was an appendix pain and then suggested we should operate on it ASAP but since I had school that weak he was gonna give me some drugs to suppress it but I had too come back too operate it by Friday once I’m back from school.

During the weak I was under the vitamins my aunt who was a nurse came over and my mum told her about it and she went on about the doctor being a liar and all I had too do was take my vitamins and drink lots of water too flush it away well obviously thought that was some nonsense but she stated that her daughter did the same and she hasn’t felt any pain till date and someone I know off also said the the same so I taught it wouldn’t hurt trying well I took the drugs for 7days thats how long the drugs complete dose was and u took lots of water everyday but immediately the dose got finished the pain came back even worst than before o lord I was so scared cried some few nights even more.

(U may ask why I only cried at nights? well I didn’t want anyone to know I was letting it get to me because my mum went on and on about the operation being simple that I would be awake during the operation that it wouldn’t hurt at all I would be strong after 2days blah blah blah but those speech didn’t work.)

Then I complained to my mum that it even hurts more now so they took me too me too another hospital for another check up, wounder why because that’s a waste of money, when we got the the Junior doctor did the test and was like it’s an appendix pain that I need too operate on it, then my mum told him about my aunts theory then he corrected it saying? An appendix can’t be washed away the pain can only be compressed if it happens that it goes away it’s just gonna come back again and it’s gonna be worst than before.

So the junior doctor said I need too see the main doc before we fix a date for the operation but apparently he was busy in the theatre with a serious operation so we waited and waited but he wasn’t still done so they just announced that we would have to come back the next day which was a Friday so we left, mehn u have no idea what ran on my mind that day.

We went to the hospital the next day I saw the main doctor and he said we had to operate on it that same day like wtf I want mentally prepared but couldn’t say no that shit burst it could turn into something serious that’s gonna be double call Scar in my beautiful stomach ๐Ÿ˜‚, then they told me too drink 6 Large cup of alkaline water and eat nothing that whole day (u have no idea what that taste like๐Ÿ˜ฐ) after few hours they called me to take off my clothes and get in the theater for the operation got some drip pipe idk fixed in my left arm then I laid half neaked on the bed were I was too be operated on๐Ÿ˜‚ mehn k was scared but just got some courage then the tied my hards on some stuff they connected too on the bed I was so scared like why r they doing that I taught to myself was I gonna struggle and scream though this so then I asked the doctor if I was gonna be awake during the operation but he didn’t say nothing too me๐Ÿ˜‚ like at that point I was already planing and escape plan on how I was gonna Jack my hand and run out screaming I don’t wanna do this anymore embarrassing but if it saves me the the torture of pain๐Ÿ˜‚ then some other doctor started injecting my left harm they the drip whatever was my arm started feeling cold and heavy I seriously prayed at that point that I was gonna fall asleep but I wasn’t sleeping then he gave me the third injecting ๐Ÿ˜‚ the entire started dancing like I felt like they were swinging the bed and boom I woke up feeling confused and pain on my stomach I started rolling over on my bed had no idea the operation was done with taught It was just the appendix pain that got worst but then I heard the nurse next to me feeling me too stop rolling so I felt my stomach and they was this huge bandage on it o mehn was I relieve that I was alive๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

Got discharged the next day evening early right wounder why but the doctor discharged mee๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ’” first month I only drank alkaline water first week I only ate pap which is some light food but taste horrible with no milk and sugar and that’s what I ate lost so much weight well I was happy about that not just the pain journey home form the hospital was so harsh so many speed breaker each time we hit one I felt like I was being stabbed a thousand time, couldn’t eat food till I farted ๐Ÿ˜‚, was so happy about my first fart after the operation๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ finally got to eat and got back too school the 2nd weak after the operation early yh my mum was against it but I just couldn’t miss more school not that I’m such a school lover just really bored of resting at home all my uniform started looking really big on me like lost pounds so many weight first day in school after to operation was nice got so much attention when I say attention I mean getting helps on notes I missed getting complemented on my new skinny look I never looked fat too me but they claimed I was if I compared it with now well whatever a thing of the past.

It’s been 3 months and some days after the operation now still in gralling process doc says it could take a yr or 6 months to fully heal looking forward to that because tho this stuff reduced my chores it placed so many limitations in what u do like I can’t wear heels for now like when I wear a dress I wanna rock it with some heels Snickers would work but I love going classy and heely looking forward to that and so happy about how skinny I look now but still wanna get body goal tho not here they but half way they

That’s the long story of the appendix surgery I had done, what a name๐Ÿ˜‚,hope u enjoyed reading it tried making some points brief and straight forward to cut the long story short.

Don’t forget to like and follow me thanks have a nice day๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ’–

MY NEW YEAR REVOLUTION (2021 BUCKET LIST)

GOALS

1.Get my self confidence from a scale of 90 too 100

2. Get up too 5k followers on my main Instagram account @_des_ire

3. Build up my (2nd) social account on Instagram

4. Be more active on YouTube (get creative and make more dope YouTube videos)

5. Be more active on WordPress (post more blogs regularly)

6. Get better in all my important subject (secure a good grade on my external exams)

7. Take more dope pictures๐Ÿ˜‚๐ŸŒš

8. Keep less friends (because I have been surrounded with way too many fakes last year)

9. Improve my listening skills

10. Get my body goal

11.open a new blog topic (SIMPLE FACTS) coming to your screens soon

12.watch Gabriel Rapture 4๐Ÿ˜‚ (its gonna be out this yr its a really nice movie u guys should go check out the part 1 2 and 3 u would love it)

13. Set boundaries for myself and for other people like how far they could get too me if u know what I mean access boundaries๐Ÿ˜‚

14. Get way prettier lol (I’m getting into the university this yr what do u expert I’m gonna look way dope obviously๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐ŸŒš)

15. Ok that’s it my 2021 goals gonna make sure I achieve all of it ok that’s it for now bye have a nice day don’t forget to like and follow my blog see ya beautiful people๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŽฌ

HOW I SPENT MY CHRISTMAS๐ŸŒˆ

MY CHRISTMAS

Hyy guys ๐Ÿ˜‡, so today I’m gonna share with u all how I spent my Christmas,well it was a quite simple but fun, I spent it with my family my mum made all my fav holiday dishes and cake๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿ˜‚that’s the best part,tho we didn’t get out but it was still fun I’m just gonna say my Christmas was spent with me eating bonding with my fam and watching TV later at night but mostly eating๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿ˜‡.

Here’s a pic of the cake we had๐Ÿ˜‹

I want u reading this right now to share/comment on how u spent your 2020 Christmas๐Ÿ˜‡.

Thanks for reading my blog and pls don’t forget to like and follow me WISHING YOU ALL A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR๐ŸŽ†๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

Before I go I just wanna say a big thanks to all my followers and readers tho their few but I notice improvement and upgrades in my total number of views in every new blog I upload thanks for reading my blog I love u all๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ˜˜

TURNED 16 3DAYS AGO (DECEMBER 10TH)

I didn’t actually want to blog about this because my sweat 16 felt like some normal stressful school day, I always taught turning 16 was gonna be super exciting like my sweat 16 just 7 months ago I dreamed about this day like how I was gonna spend it the fun things I was gonna do to mark my sweat 16 but NOO, the stupid pandemic had to come ruin things like if this pandemic never happened right now I wouldn’t be in school writing exams we would have gone for our holiday like Early December uhm maybe 2nd or 3rd but not on the 17th never spent my bday in school till now, ok I’m gonna move right in to what made my bday even more upsetting my first day of exam was on my bday like when it was announced I was just so disappointed not shocked because I already knew we were going on break by the 17th of December, but I’m gonna be honest I didn’t really feel bordered about it like how my bday was spent studying for my mathematics examination it didn’t really border me that much because my mum and dad promised to get me an iPhone as my bday gift like just thinking bout that made me feel much better, right now I just can’t wait till my exams r over so I could get my gift I would have gotten it on my bday but again exams ruined that but I’m still getting it so whatever.

So everyone’s happy I’m happy I guess just really stressed because of exams but I’m gonna be ones I’m done just for now for the rest of this yr because I got my external exams next yr and that gonna be a lot of load on me just thinking about me get me or shivery, well don’t wanna think about that now just gonna lay back and chill after my exams can’t chill right now๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚.

Ok BYE NOW I’M OFF TO GO STUDY HOPE U GOT ENTERTAINED BY WHATEVER I JUST WROTE๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜€ AND PLS DON’T FORGET TO LIKE AND FOLLOW ME THANKS HAVE A NICE DAY๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŒˆ

MY SWEET 16